Welcome to my first Dream Diary. As I'm sure most people have, I've had some sensational dreams. I've decided to start recording the ones I find appealing down. By appealing I mean they might interest me because of violent or frightening content, an interesting storyline or even (probably) because of kinkiness.
In other words, these dreams probably won't be suitable for those with weak hearts.

2006/10/13
I had an interesting dream last night. It seems I was a lesser noble, with only one relative that I know of (he was either a cousin or a half-brother). It seems I was sold, kidnapped, or somehow forced to be a 'gentleman' to a much richer noble. He had a wife who didn't like me in the least, and she was usually upset at him for having me. Eventually he grew tired of me being a pain in the butt and somehow convinced my cousin to take me and to take over the inheritence of the family. He must have given my cousin quite a talk, because he treated me like a sex slave. I had writing on my back, from either being carved in or burned in, which I think served like tattooing numbers on a prisoner. Briefly in the dream, it went over that my cousin had taken a knife and "scribbled" out part of what was written, the same way that you would quickly scribble out a writing error on a paper. I think he saw me more as an object at this point.
Somewhere down the road, after a long period of living like that, my cousin finally came to the realization that we were supposed to be family. He told me secretly that I had one night to escape, and he unlocked the door on my cage that night.
The dream didn't detail how I escaped, but I was very angry at the richer noble from before for first forcing me to be with him, and then getting my cousin to betray me. I found him on balcony overlooking a party or a ball, and attacked him with a knife.
At that point his wife came out with two swords and attacked me. He made some sort of comment that even though she had a hot-temper or didn't like his other lovers, she was still a loyal/obedient/good wife.

I woke up and went to the bathroom quickly, and when I went back to sleep it continued from another spot. All the previous history that happened between myself and him and myself and my cousin was 'already known'.
I was trying to escape, and of all people Gwendal and Conrad (KKM) found me while they were out riding horses somewhere. It didn't take a whole lot of thought for them to realize I had been tortured, and I ended up going back to Gwendal's castle (Conrad startled me somehow. I was very easily frightened and startled). They didn't know who I was (I was a lesser noble, so I wasn't necessarily well-known outside my small region). I didn't talk, and I was having a hard time trusting anyone.
I was taken into the castle with the understanding that I was going to be frightened, confused and have trust issues for a very long time (all of the torture and rape had happened over a period of years). Gwendal gave me some sort of simple page-boy job. Most the time I seemed to pass time 'around' Gwendal's troops. Even though I didn't say anything they treated me like a member and were very kind to me.

In the beginning it was a tumultuous dream. I was caught and had no means of escape. But at the end it was much more peaceful. I was still distressed, but I was around calm people who understood me (being soldiers they seemed to have a better understanding of how torture and such affects people). So, even though I was constantly startled by small things, I still felt safe where I was. It was also interesting how the entire beginning of the dream had all original characters, whereas the end characters from Kyou Kara Maou entered. Maybe I needed a familiar face to calm down.
There was a lot of betrayal in this dream. Towards the end I think my mind created something that it felt I could trust.