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True and open honesty. I don't think you'll see it often these days. I think people aren't even aware of how much they censor themselves.

You see, I have bad thoughts. Don't we all? Sometimes my thoughts drift into taboo areas. You know, those things you wouldn't bring up at the dinner table? Incest, rape, polygamy, violence, fetishes, kinks and all the other good things.

My theory is that either I'm a strange freak of nature (entirely possible), or other people also lapse into such thoughts. But, knowing that these things are wrong, people probably brush the thoughts away with a simple, "That's wrong" or "That's not something I should be thinking about".
And so you end up with people who unconsciously aren't entirely open and honest. Even if they do think over those taboo thoughts in their head, they probably aren't going to tell anyone about it.

And that's what I mean about true and open honesty. I realized that even I censor myself in my head sometimes, and I wonder if I should. So, when I write something, I try to be as open as possible.

As I've talked to people over the years I've become more open. I've brought up thinks like incest and a variety of random fetishes, and the most shocking thing is the way people receive it. They don't act as if I'm strange. Often they almost receive it quite calmly. I've even had people react positively, as if they finally had an opportunity where they wouldn't feel strange to talk about a subject.

It makes me believe that I'm not alone in my thoughts. I think we all delve into dark or taboo subjects, even analyze them closely in our heads. I also think that if we start being more open about that, we can face those subjects head-on instead of them being a forbidden realm. Sound strange?
Well, for a long time, and still somewhat currently, women didn't talk about their vaginas. They just didn't. There are a lot of older women who not only won't talk about it, but they will tell you they don't know much about it, either. Sometimes they don't know much of anything about their genitalia. In the worst cases, they may have never even experienced an orgasm, because they couldn't talk about that. It was dirty and wrong.
I think it's sad that those women felt so horribly about their own bodies. And I think the same thing might be happening when we censor ourselves. Are we censoring ourselves because it's wrong, or because we're told it's wrong? Sometimes I find that something is 'wrong', but I can't provide a solid argument for why it's wrong. That's exactly why I think I need to be open and honest. Instead of silencing my thoughts, I want to share them, and hopefully find meaning in them.